Not quite sure where I go wrong

Ahhhhh life, that little thing that happens when you are looking right? Well, I've not been looking for quite sometime now. I have managed to achieve failed relationship after failed relationship and no not ALL were my fault but I just seem to attract worlds worst boyfriends ever! I've been cheated on time and time again, been treated like crap over and over again, and have had my heart shattered more often than I like to let on. What is the issue here? I am a GREAT and I repeat a GREAT girlfriend!! I'm caring, considerate of others, sweet, loyal, honest, and I love having sex...sorry if that is tmi but hey it's my blog right? lol I just don't understand! When i don't have a bad boyfriend I don't even get asked out hardly ever, it truly makes me feel like I am defective on some level or something. Too fat? Possibly. Not Pretty? Also possible but i don't like to look at myself negatively but it happens ALOT. I'm always doing something to try to make myself more attractive to the opposite sex but NOTHING seems to work!! I just don't understand...I'm not a doormat but I'm not a bitch either, I'm not jealous and so on and on and on....Help!

Life is Divine Chaos
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I will be the me i will always be

There are so many people in my life who aren't happy with the person that i am. They think that if I switch my music taste or how I look (which is quite often) I am trying to change who I am when in reality I am exercising the person that I AM! I love change I personally think that it is good for the soul...I'm not trying to be someone that I'm not. I am me....odd, eccentric, ever changing me. I am not the tidiest person in the world, I cry easily, I wear my heart on my sleeve, i fall in love quickly and out of it painstakingly slow, I get hurt and embarrassed easily, I'm temperamental and I will fight for who I love and what i believe in. It's who i am. I mean I am a what you see is what you get kind of person and I can be brutally honest but I never mean to hurt anyone. Once you've done me wrong i will write you off completely but I still care as much as i don't want to. Once my anger fades i hurt too. I relate everything to music...as a matter of fact, music is my one true passion, I sing I play guitar and i don't think I could live without it. My brain is wired for it to be honest lol. I am insanely loyal to my family and my friends and when I have a boyfriend (which isn't often) I hate when people don't like me but i guess you can't win em all. Oh well, that is all for now :)

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Family make you crazy??

Not sure about all of you...or no one at the moment because I have no followers lol but do certain members of your family drive you absolutely insane?? I love my family deeply with my whole heart but sometimes....there's just some that I cannot take! Bitching, whining and moaning is not something I want to listen to when I am trying to relax. Or repetitive conversation and being talked down to. I get to my wits end and hold my tongue but it gets to a boiling point to where I can feel my temper starting to let go. It makes me feel like a bad person but on the other hand I think, if I say something will I get peace and quiet? Then again I don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings. I really try to treat people the way that I want to be treated but sometimes I, just like everyone else loses sight of that. It's not just one person that does this in particular, it's just sometimes I don't want to be bothered. Oh well...can I get some feedback on this...if anyone follows me that is.

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Hello Moto

Well hello there. My friend inspired me to start a blog of my own after reading through hers. There will be some venting I'm sure and just some day to day chit chat....that is if I can remember to keep up with this, which I hope to do. Sometimes I just need an outlet to write or complain or just well talk or write about things that I personally find interesting. I'm asking that there be no attacking of any kind but  opposed viewpoints are welcome in a respectable manner. Thanks for reading!!

Life is Divine Chaos

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